My Time as a Human

As a human I am naturally endowed by my creator with certain unquenchable desires and primary directives, among these are the quest for food, safety, and reproduction (both sex and co-nurture of young). Additionally my particular model has some kind of a novelty and artistic creation directive that can be quite insistent and will, at times, overpower other basic survival directives like food and sleep.

In order for our society to develop and advance, we have learned that we must band together and combine resources, often necessitating the use of extreme measures to overcome our primary objectives. These stiflings come in the form of religious or governmental laws that tell us not to reproduce every time, and with every one, we can get our hands on. They also tell us not to kill anyone who tries to spread their genes in our place, or who cuts in front of us when waiting in line for a Wii. Some even restrict eating, perhaps as a way of training and “keeping in shape” for the resisting of sex.

Now that I have been single again for a while, I am reminded of the many ways the primary directives are compromised by the limited ability of our primal brains to understand the bigger picture. When single, the most powerful motivating force in my known universe is cute women. They are like curvaceous chunks of P-238, and when I get near one I start bouncing and wriggling with all of the extra energy. I write more creatively. Music pours out of me in my isolated moments. What I’ve learned, however, is that for me they often have a great deal more potential energy than kinetic energy. Unrequited love produces far more artistic output than a stable isotope. This means that my directive to produce art is in conflict with my directive to maintain a stable relationship (stable relationships being necessary for the care of young).

As it turns out, this works out in a practical manner as well. Through experimentation, I’ve learned that there is a cycle of response to a lengthy absence during a long term relationship, typically taking place in the span of a month:

• Week 1: “This such a great opportunity for you. I’m so excited for you! Have a great trip!”
• Week 2: “Wow, I really, really miss you!”
• Week 3: “You know, now that I have more time I’ve really been exploring more of myself, discovering who I am and what I want out of life. I feel like I’m really growing as a person.”
• Week 4: “Who are you and how did I let you ruin my life?!”

Now, it’s useful to have a few humans with this novelty directive in your gene pool, because they’re the types to hop out into the cold without a towel, jog over the next hill, and find out that there’s a hot tub over there. They also provide amusing sounds when everyone is back in the pool again. You just don’t want to have too many of them, or let them mate with your daughters, potentially leading to unstable offspring.

So I’ll keep poking my head over nearby hills, bouncing up and down when girls get near, and try as I might to avoid it, end up in some form of relationship again. But it gets rough being built like a pinball machine, designed to bounce back and forth forever. At some point the magnets will refuse to fire, the lights will flicker, and the last ball will trickle through the unresponsive flippers and rattle into the pocket for the end of my game. I can only hope that at that point I, and everyone around me, had some fun along the way.